Hopefully Soon

A poem I wrote at a time when I was losing hope about becoming a mother:

It's not your time yet

But hopefully soon

I am your mother

I've been waiting for you

Waiting for months

Turned to waiting for years

You're worth the anger and frustration

You're worth all the tears

A moment will come

When our eyes first meet

I'll kiss the top of your head

And your tiny little feet

I'll read you great books

And teach you to pray

You will learn of God

And of course we'll play

At times I lose faith

Hope goes down the drain

Part of being strong

Is accepting that there's pain

I'm still learning patience

While I wait for good news

The days I can't handle

God helps me diffuse

Know that I love you

That I understand

It's not up to me or you

It's all in God's hands

My baby, I love you

Your daddy does, too

It's not your time yet

But hopefully soon

Henry, arrived May 2016
Adoption finalized March 2017

John, born January 2018